Below are the 9 most recent journal entries recorded in suchaprtypictur's LiveJournal:

Friday, May 6th, 2005
11:53 am	an addendum to the march journal OK.. so lets catch up.. the miami trip went off without a hitch...I am proud to announce.. j'ai une petit ami... yup yup urs truly is taken... which is odd cuz i'm not used to bein taken but uh oh well.. that is love... I've been through some shit with some boys.. but eff it its all over i'm down for the count i guess you could say... i just don't kno what else to say.. all the goodbyes are in the journal before this one.. so enjoy!!! Current Mood: amused Current Music: hope - faith evans ft twista
11:41 am	so long georgetown 04/05 ... As the year is quickly coming to an end (3 days).. I've realized I didn't know it was ending till just now... I saw a friend of mine moving out, yup they are moving out... people are leaving, packing their ish and hittin the road... as for me I'm STAYING... I got a JOB and an APARTMENT.. I'm all effin grown up.. yea syke.. its scary for real... next year I wont be new on campus, I won't be lost going to class, I won't be nervous about going to parties... i'll be part of georgetown... I'll be throwing the parties...or at least helping.. I won't be a FRESHMAN.. and i remember once one of my favorite high school teachers said to my sophomore class " you know what sophomore means right? The word means wise fool..." and with that I think thats exactly what I'm going to be the wisest motha effin fool ever... I'm still gonna eff up but at the end of the day i'll have my ish together.. maybe?! Hmm i dunno...but yea PEOPLE its over... I'm no longer that close to high school... I'm kinda stuck in limbo.. I'm not a kid anymore but a true adult? I dunno bout that... i still eat froot loops and prefer the Simpsons to CNN... I guess in a way I don't have to grow up but what happens when i turn 19... thats too close to 20 which is way way too close to 25 which is half way to 50 which is basically the end of my life... WHERE HAS THE TIME GONE?! OMG . I'm a sophomore.... when i heard people tell me they were sophomores in college.. i used to think DANG you are an adult.. they seemed soo grown up... but i look at myself and reallly really don't see that... I'm sorta freaked.. I still look like i belong in high school, I WISH i still belonged in high school.. at least there i didn't have to do school work..WHAT WAS I THINKING? I was actually happy about leaving high school? wow i was dumb.. but eh i guess college isn't too bad... i get a lot of freedom... i get to go out and stay out as long as i please.. but i don't have home cooked food and going home is strange... i feel like my parents are aliens.. i'm so far removed from them i don't kno how to react to them and that scares me... but i guess in the end there isn't much i can do I GUESS i should leave some final thoughts of the year: TO ALL THOSE that i've lost touch with or no longer speak to or just haven't seen in a while.. I still remember you and even tho it may not seem like it I HOLD NO GRUDGES in my heart to ya'll (I'm talkin ppl from way way waaaaaay back... not just this year) as we grow into sophomores and juniors in college i hope everything and everyone treats you well and your goals are reached... AS FOR NEXT YEAR: what can i say... i just wanna graduate... n it looks like i'm gonna have a hard time with that... cuz i am already 3 courses behind... hmmm FUN well gonna bust my ass next year... Peace one Current Mood: crazy Current Music: just gotta make it - trey songz ft twista
Monday, March 14th, 2005
1:35 am	Its my night, no stress, no fights, i'm leavin it all behind.... its like that ...I don't even know where to start, go, or finish.... all i can say is that eerily, the more i get the less i want... BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU ASK FOR... for real tho, cuz sometimes.. its a little hard to realize u CAN'T handle it all... i thought it would be good, n its ok.... but i wish it wasn't so hard lol... ya'll don't even kno what i'm talkin bout.. its cool tho, but yea lets see what has been up.. ooo is MIAMI (spanish accent only!!) in the future?.. dun dun dduuuuun.. it is a possibility, but who knows, even if that doesn't pan out i'm still gonna spend spring break with my girl cara... what what.. haha oh shit we're gonna be on our own in a huge house..u kno it won't be kosher... but yea lets see.. its 1:40 n i don't really kno what to talk about cuz everything's effed up.. but in a good way.. I REALLY DON'T GIVE AN EFF.. but hey i just thought my adoring fans (hahaha) would like to know my state of mind.. because ummm yea i haven't dropped off the face of the earth yet.. not yet... oh and by the way.. i'm married......or not lol, i think, well cara thinks i am... n probably the whole world that knows who i'm talking about, but its far from that... i think ?! lol ok well i'm tired n rambling night all... i looooooooove you (much love to the husband ;op ) this week is gonna kik my arse, o effing well... Current Mood: ditzy Current Music: It's like that --Mariah Carey
Monday, February 14th, 2005
4:22 pm	lets not wait... ok so to recap the past two weeks i think... Last week was wretched.. from like monday till thursday i think i felt more emotion then ever before and i don't have any effing clue as to why...i think i'm slowly realizing that altho we did act like we were together we weren't and i have to accept it i keep telling myself its somethin ya gotta get over cuz i will damned if i'm gonna miss out on anything else... OK so not to mention all the emotions again but i was pissed cuz the weekend before last.. i missed out on a whole bunch of stuff thanks to this guy... who isn't even my bf.. n it wouldv'e been fine if he was cuz i kno u need to make sacrifices like that in a relationship but the simple matter of it is I"M NOT IN AN EFFING RELATIONSHIP haha so i decided that it was time for a break.. needless to say i misssed the eff out of him but i had to stop it cuz it wasn't efficient i'm not with anyone so why should i spend all my time with him... i needed to be selfish so i got out and started to try to have fun.. which was effective.. thursday night i got drunk .. it was great... friday night i got drunk... it was awesome... saturday i got drunk smoked hooka and ate chicken tikka.... that night was amazing... THAT NIGHT WAS WHAT I WANT MY LIFE TO BE LIKE.. i mean i don't necessarily have to be drunk but the food, the ppl, the hooka, the music, and the atmosphere was amazing i don't think i'd ever been happier just being there with friends n chillen..i wanna do that again.. cept it really really did cost a lot so we may have to limit the trips to the hooka bar... but damn i will be saving up for frequent trips starting in the spring.... so lets see then what happened.. o yea some stuff that i won't mention on here but anyways its valentines day... which is a bunch of bs.. like honestly i don't care about this holiday n i'd only care if i had a siginificant other like a real one not a fake one haha... but yea so i am gonna go drink some more.. cuz its 4:30pm n i'm an alcoholic.. byeeeeee!!! Current Mood: lethargic Current Music: Sex and Candy - Marcy Playground
Sunday, January 30th, 2005
11:13 pm	exhausting My weekend was exhausting as well as fun... n like confusing and reaffirming.. thats a lot of dang adjectives to describe the weekend... but neway... i spent fri n sat night with my favorite person (one of em) at gtown...it was fun.... we tried to get into a bar.. using a GO Card..haha he knew the bouncer but uh.. no such luck for me.. so we walk back in the snow.. but i had amazing back massages so its all good... also it dawns on me...we really are just friends n while it hurt... i guess it saves from the heart ache.. n u kno what? he sed he doesn't have time for a gf.. but he has hella time for me.. which is all i can ask... ok well i'm really really tired i'll finish this later.. nighty night!!!!! "If not, you better keep your day job/ Cuz i'm looking for a man that makes me say GOD..." - trina (one minute man) Current Mood: exhausted n then some Current Music: One Minute Man - Missy ft.Ludaaaa
Thursday, January 27th, 2005
11:51 pm	daaaayyyyuuuummm Sitting here in a towel.... don't get any dirty images boys lol jk.. but yea waiting for the only GOOD shower in the icky communal b-room... we have 6 (?) showers and only one has good water pressure... so i wait.. as i wait i am thinking of all the shit thats gone down n how if i didn't have my mother n certain other persons *wink wink* I'd go insane...ugh lemme tell ya this world is a cut throat place.. i mean damn u turn ur back for one sec.. n u've got herpies... uhhh i didn't say that lol.. no but seriously TRUST NO ONE haha.. its easier to fend for urself when u kno u don't need to worry bout neone else... i think i've made that mistake before... but not nemore.. its all me.. numero uno.. ppl come n go right? what happens is supposed to be c'est la vie.. carpe diem n all that foreign cliche crap... whatever but ya kno what.. its all g wonder if my showers ready....? "there's nothing wrong with finger painting.. i stick my middle finger in.." -RHCP Current Music: RHCP... lets go get lost
Tuesday, January 25th, 2005
9:11 am	HA HaHahA It's real funny how things got real settle n calm real quick like i wouldn't expect it... n i'm just waiting for emminent disaster.. SOMETHING will happen I guarantee it.. just stick around I'm sure u'll find some journal entry that i say my world may fall down or somethin strange like that well its early.. n i have class in an hour.. its the only class i have.. which is sorta interesting.. cuz WHAT THE HECK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH THE REST OF MY DAY... granted.. i should be doing the massive amounts of reading that a GEORGETOWN student has... yea GEORGETOWN.... class of 08 what what.. haha.. but ya.. i'm being faced with the horrible question of housing.. like for real what is that about, I DON'T WANT TO LIVE ON CAMPUS.... i think i'll just get an apartment n commute.. but oh wait.. i'm going to be a sophomore.. guess that means i gotta live on campus.. this place FINDS way to suck the money out of u... no joke first with the meal plan and now with the "all sophomores must live on campus" bull shiiiiiit.. haha but neways... class n preparing for such is calling... "I do good ass business with a bad ass temper" -- Luda Current Mood: indifferent Current Music: Who Not Me -- Ludacris
Monday, January 24th, 2005
8:48 pm	SOME FUNNY SHIIIIIIIT ok-- so you remember the problem of having something and nothing all at once? well apparently i can fix it... hear me out.. i can get mine while still having what i'm looking for... now its probably wrong to get it from two different sources.. but uh its not like i've met anyone that is the complete package...SO.. i could end up regretting this ... but ya kno what.. i'm 18 and if i can't make mistakes now.. when can i make them... HAHA by the way... this is really funny.. like ya'll who kno (*ahem* eric *ahem*) realize this is really really funny and they kno why... but hey its all g Current Mood: hyper Current Music: Ludacris--pass out
Sunday, January 23rd, 2005
11:48 pm	WoW... What's with wanting what u can't have?! ain't that a bitch?! but u kno what.. i'm real happy with what i got... even if its not everything i wanted... its hard to understand possibly but for those of u who kno my current situation i'm sure u get it.. AND THINK ITS STRANGE AS HELL!!! but I'm content with it... i'll just hold on to it until i find the right person that can give me what i have now... n what i want hehe other than that... things are goin OKAAAAAY lovin my classes... as for the social scene.. dont get me started... i love the ladies i hang with n they kno who they are.. but as far as everything else goes... EH lol its indifference baby.. all about indifference.. besides i got some good ppls away from school that are LIFE SAVERS lol its good to have a tight nit crew tho... n thats what i got here and at home..so its all g Current Mood: quixotic Current Music: Freaks- Playz-n-skillz